My Dearest Xxxxxxxx,
It has been weeks since I last heard from you. The feeling is gut wrenching but I know I must bear it. There is so much I want to ask, say. But I can’t.
I want to know if you are alright. I do not doubt you. I know you can take care of yourself, but would it be right for me not to care? It matters to me because You matter.
I realise now, my biggest mistake. I let myself get close. Not just to you, but with everyone. I hurt you and I hurt them. Maybe I’m not such a good person. Maybe you made the right choice, there is nothing to love about me.
I do not know what I am going to do next. I made a mess, most of all, I do not know who I am any longer.
I still miss you.